TinaMcConnell

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You'll probably hate me.
I'm confused and socially awkward. I'm nothing special, but I want to be something greater. I try to be nice to everyone, and not judge people, but sometimes I can't help it. I'd like to think it's human nature.This is interesting, even though no one will ever read any of it. My self-esteem is below hell, but I try to come off as confident. You will never understand me. I never pay attention to what's going on around me, but I'm observant. I will probably confuse you. I have no real friends, except Alecia Bowman. The world annoys me, I'm sick of wars. I'm more curious than you'd ever expect. I don't do handshakes. Stay away from my heart. And believe me, you don't want your heart in my hands. I'll soon give it back and walk away. I like colors and things that don't make sense. I'm vulnerable, and indecisive. I fear everyone will leave me, so I always leave first. I apologize if I ruin your life, run away from you as soon as we get really close, or bring you down. It's not intentional, but I tend to mess with people mentally. I'm so sorry. I can't help it. I'm psychotic. I'm rebellious. I ramble and over-exaggerate. I want to try everything once, even if the consequences are far worse than I could imagine. Sometimes you need an experience. The experience opens a door that was there all the time but you never saw it. I love people for who they are, what they stand for, what interests them, what makes them laugh and what makes them angry. Not what they choose to wear, or what their hair looks like, the color of their eyes or their sexuality. I'm always tired even though I'm constantly sleeping. I don't trust anyone, so please don't be offended if I don't trust you with things. Don't tell me any secrets, I may blurt them out to someone. It's all an accident, though. I never intended to hurt anyone. I'm working on creating myself, rather than finding myself. Never tell me that I can't do something, that'll only drive me to want to do it even more. I cannot stand when people try to control me. Otherwise, I'll try to love you. You are only human.