what i dont say

hold your own - somehow i keep getting up after life kicks me in the face. i think by now, i probably live for those moments when i can shout "YEAH! SO WHAT! SCREW YOU, LIFE!!" but i thought of this colour because of my decision to be a single parent - a very unpopular one with family and my fiance. no one wanted me to have my son, except me. i was 27 and it was just the right time. the ONLY 100% successful decision i have ever made. i have no regrets - on good days or bad, lots of money (hah!) or none. i ate crackers and noodle soup cups for 6 months to survive because everyone was angry with me for having a baby and didn't talk to me, and i had no money for more than rent and diapers. all of this through post partem craziness. but i'm still here. still holding it down on my own. i have a strong belief in the capability of women to hold their own in this world.

DarkNight ofthe Soul - have lots of this. maybe it's a writer thing. i don't know. but it's a very real thing when darkness creeps into your mind and keeps you awake with overwhelming sorrow.

touch me - love is all in touching. minds, hearts, bodies. if i love you, you can hug me all day long as i'll be hugging you. but i have a weird thing with touch where there are people i meet who i just can't and i will never let them touch me. it's weird.

hurt - i hurt too much and too easily. i hurt for everyone i know. what hits them, hits me. wow ... i don't think i've ever said that to anyone before ...

i drink - i make lots of palettes about drinking but i don't. i'm an alcoholic but dry for 17 years. yay! it's not a big deal to me to be with people drinking. i was a kid - i had a problem. an army boyfriend fixed it for me by giving me some "bootcamp therapy." i'll always love him for saving my life. i just threw everything down the drain and never drank again. only once in 17 years have i longed for a drink - and i didn't have it. (:

now you people know TOO MUCH!! aaaahhh!!! :D (i'm too old to care now. LOL!)

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