I have always been an artist. Since I was old enough to hold a pencil, I have been drawing. And for a very long time, I have tried to be sensible, and make pragmatic decisions about my education, career, and life in general. After a very long time, I've come to realize: we are who we are. And more, importantly, that the person I am and always have been, is better than the person I've been trying to be this whole time. My suggestion to anyone that has ever felt like there is only one right way to live their lives is to have the courage to explore a bit and make mistakes. Becoming yourself, can be a lot like falling in love:
Over time, you will get a taste for what you like. You start to understand what you really are not willing to compromise on. You'll also realize some of the things that were originally important to you are not as important anymore. You will get to know yourself better. You will realize that there are parts of your self that are not appreciated by everyone, and you will start gravitating toward people that are picking up what you're putting down.
But all of this takes time. And it can be a little painful. But you can't rush somethings.