I left CL nearly a year and a half ago at a time when my life was complex and overwhelming. At that time I found that keeping up with this thriving community was suddenly not fun anymore -- it was stressful and caused me anxiety.
There were just too many "Thank You's" to send, too many people to write. (Yes, I realize how rude I was for leaving correspondence unsent and unanswered....) And yet I discovered I'd missed the joy of creating and seeing others' creations. (It's lovely to come back to see familiar names. :)
Right now my life is as stressful as it's EVER been. I find that if I just focus on coloring patterns, I can breathe and cope with the anxiety of the moment. Sometimes I'll even respond to messages or pen a quick "thank you" but please please understand that I'll probably not do a lot of that, or do anything to promote my patterns. This is, for me right now, therapy of the highest order and, as an introvert, it feels good to hide in my little CL corner and play with the crayons... :)
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COLOR!!!! BRING ON THE COLOR!!!! It's winter here in the pacific northwest of the United States and the colors around me are muted grays, blues and dormant greens. I dream of red sand deserts, gleaming oceans....vibrant skies. Looking at my loves and patterns it might seem as though i don't appreciate the more subtle hues... i do, honestly, but I'm not craving them.
A lot of people have messaged me asking why I've listed "Artist" as my occupation. Surely everyone here is occupied with art, and very few make their living with it. So i hereby admit I'm not presently making a living with my art, BUT i am an artist, a painter, spent years teaching art....and have a degree with ART written on it so i guess I've earned the right to state that as my occupation even though, (or especially since), I'm unemployed at the moment. On the other hand, I'm staggered by some of the talent here that I can't match, even with my silly degree, so no, i don't believe it gives me magical powers or anything. I'm learning new things here, and it excites me. I practically giggle when I change the intensity of a color only slightly and every other color in the pattern seems to shift and change before my eyes. THAT is magic and one reason why i find this site addictive.
Thanks to everyone who has offered their encouragement and support. If anyone can tell me how i can get even a little more OCD about what i look at on my profile page (without deleting half my patterns), please let me know!
Wow... More than 200 follows already!? How better to commemorate that fact than with some graceful jellyfish? :)